Wow, my brain has totally lost it… I can’t remember anything and feel quite confused most of the time. However, injecting went quite smoothly tonight and so nothing to report on that front. I’ve been getting mixed ‘reviews’ on this blog and not sure how much I should bombard my facebook friends with it, but whatever. It seems like all I can think or talk about these days are the bloody eggs.. Sorry, eggs, I didn’t mean it. You’re lovely really.
I had a private lesson today and as usual my student made me some tea without asking if I wanted some (I normally drink it). But I knew that if I drank that tea, I wouldn’t be able to have any more caffeine in the day. And I prefer coffee. So I just ignored the tea which was just sitting there. At the end of the lesson the student looked at the full cup and said that he doesn’t like that flavour either, and next time he’ll make me some other flavour tea… So this made me think – how awkward would it be to just tell people that I can’t drink alcohol/coffee because I’m freezing my eggs, and not make up some other reason such as I’m trying to cut down on coffee, like I have been doing? How ’embarrassing’ is it to be doing this? Maybe in the future this would be just a normal thing that women do. At the moment I don’t mind telling friends or people that I feel kind of close to, but it’s a bit different when it comes to ‘strangers’. This student also happens to be working with one of my ex boyfriends, so that might be weird.
Also, I’ve recently posted the first 2 things I wrote on the blog and lots of people said how brave I was to be doing this. But I also have this sense that it seems to some that I’m writing about this for selfish reasons. I’d like to think that it’s not just that, but is this a really weird thing to be doing? Writing about this experience and filming as I go, I mean. I feel like it’s helping me to go through it, but I’d also like to help others. Anyway, whatever. I feel like I’m going a bit crazy. All I think about it water, food, pee. Like a drink machine. Or an egg machine. Tomorrow is another scan. I hope the little ones have grown loads. Keep your fingers crossed!
As usual, here is a video of tonight’s injection. Enjoy!
Me and my eggs 